J.C. Hiatt's Poetry

Brandi's Eyes

2008-04-11T14:15:00.000-07:00

If you've ever looked into Brandi's eyes
Then you've had life's greatest prize
Life can sometimes make your clouds gray
But Brandi's eyes will take your pain away

Brandi's eyes are like two stones of jade
So bright their radiancy will never fade
I wish I could have the honor today
But from me she's going to be away

Brandi's eyes are heaven on the earth
In them you can find grace and rebirth
You'll never feel your misery of your life
If just you look into Brandi's eyes

Her effect on others
I don't think she knows
Her effect is beauty
It's my remeddyIf you've ever looked into Brandi's eyes
Then you've had life's greatest prize
Life can sometimes make your clouds gray
But Brandi's eyes will take your pain away

Brandi's eyes are like two stones of jade
So bright their radiancy will never fade
I wish I could have the honor today
But from me she's going to be away

Brandi's eyes are heaven on the earth
In them you can find grace and rebirth
You'll never feel your misery of your life
If just you look into Brandi's eyes

Her effect on others
I don't think she knows
Her effect is beauty
It's my remedy

Come With Me

2008-03-18T23:19:00.000-07:00

Whisper in my ear
Your words take away my fear
Always stay with me here
Because you're my angel
You'll never leave my side
Come join my life's ride
Together we'll run and hide, we'll leave it all behind

I see your beautiful eyes
They make my hope rise
To you I'll never lie
Because I'm always here for you
Let our souls become one
Without you I feel wrong
We'll share the our blood
Quenched forevermore

I belong with you
I'm supposed to help you through
To you I'll always stay true
It's almost time to go
It's your choice from here
Leave or stay
But without you my skies are filled with rain

Mind Journey

2008-03-18T23:17:00.000-07:00

Ever wonder who I am?
Ever thought about me?
Wonder what I'm like?
Here's my mind, come and see.

Take a journey with my thoughts.
Feel the feelings I never sought
See all my memories that stayed.
Inhale the aroma of my misery.

Bring your notepad, there's much to write
It won't last long it will go in flames
For my mind is a raging inferno
Browse through with care and caution

You can try to hurt my mind
But you will never succeed
I've been to hell and I've returned
You can't imagine my experiences

Take a journey with my thoughts.
Feel the feelings I never sought
See all my memories that stayed.
Inhale the aroma of my misery.

Black Rose Dying

2008-03-18T23:16:00.000-07:00

Black rose dying, turning into dust
Life finished trying, lost all the trust
Black rose dying, leave this state now
State of pain, wasn't meant to be this way

I saw you sinking to hell, so I gave you a hand
Asked the gods to take you up and to help you stand
But as I tried to help you, away from me you ran
Black rose dying, come back to me if life will grant

Black rose dying, I want you to take my help
Don't stop fighting, I'll take away all you felt
Black rose dying, leave your loneliness
Lonliness is not for you, cause I'm still here

I saw you sinking to hell, so I gave you a hand
Asked the gods to take you up and to help you stand
But as I tried to help you, away from me you ran
Black rose dying, come back to me if life will grant

I'm tired of seeing you down
I need to see a smile
Cause since you haven't been happy
I haven't in a while

I saw you sinking to hell, so I gave you a hand
Asked the gods to take you up and to help you stand
But as I tried to help you, away from me you ran
Black rose dying, come back to me if life will grant

Life

2008-03-16T11:35:00.001-07:00

I climb to the top of the mountain
I watch as the sun rises
I pray to the gods in silence
Pray that harm doesn't find you

I watch from the highest peak
The clouds in the sky turn gray
They roll and with them I collide
The sunlight breaches their darkness

I listen to the sounds of life
It echoes through my head
Screams and laughter reach me
Over and over I hear them calling

I watch your day unfold before us
I sacrifice my blood for you to live
Our blood unites to become one
We become one living being

But one must die so the other lives
I don't have to ponder the question
I hold the knife as high as arm's reach
I bring it down quickly and happily
I die for you

Except The One I Love

2008-03-05T18:22:00.005-08:00

Everytime I see you
Its the eyes
The lips
The smile
Makes my heart run wild for no one
Except the One I Love

Takes me to a place
Where all I can have is a smile on my face
Not a care for anything in the world
Not a care for anyone in the world
Except the One I Love

Brings great thoughts to my mind
The times that we have shared
The time we are sharing
The times we will share
Not a thing on my mind
Except the One I Love

Words can't describe the feeling
Feeling of Wildness
Feeling of Tameness
Feeling of Anxiety
Feeling of Dread
Feeling of Happiness
Feeling of Grieve
This feeling for no one
Except the One I Love

The Sufferings

2008-03-05T18:22:00.003-08:00

Dedicated to: Mikayla

Was it the screams
Was it the tears
Was it the happiness
His deepest fear

No happiness for her as long as I'm around
No joy or smiles
Only pain, sorrow
Suffering for miles

He was great
So nice and sweet
So gentle and caring
Innocent heartbeat

Then he turned
And fed off my fears
He was a monster with no love
Except for my tears

All this sorrow can't last forever
I will break free
The chains that hold
Will no longer constrict me

I'm finally out
He's nowhere to be seen
The chains were finally broken
Chains of a heart so mean

I will move on with my life
Forget about all of the pain
To live happily
Means for his work to be in vain

Deceit

2008-03-05T18:22:00.001-08:00

Deceit is an ugly word
But you don't really care
You lie to me day after day
Thinking I don't know

But there's a truth
A truth that you know
And that I know
You can't escape it's essence

Like a shadow that follows
Even in the darkness of lies
You don't even know
I see right through you

My Light

2008-03-05T18:21:00.005-08:00

My Light

Her love
A fire
A light
My guide
In this life of night

What am I without it
An empty vessel
Lost in shadows
Of constant night

Her love
A warmth
A heat
Can't escape
My second heartbeat

One heartbeat dies
The second goes with it
Torn apart by pain and sorrow
Never had a chance

Her love
A coolness
A cold
Extinguishes the heat
Of all my sorrows

No sorrow or pain
She's with me
Her love everlasting
Doesn't need a chance

My Second Heartbeat

2008-03-05T18:21:00.003-08:00

My Second Heartbeat has faded
Dust in the Wind
Sorrow now follows
The Pain won't End

Gone in a Rush
Alone I will Wait
My Heart in the Shadows
It was brought by Fate

The Heart wasn't ready
Was not Prepared
All sense of Emotion
Had been Impaired

I will Wait
It will Revive
It will all be up
To the Hands of Time

Memories will Last
Feelings won't fade
My Second Heartbeat
That Love has Made

My Shadow

2008-03-05T18:21:00.001-08:00

My soul
The very essence
Escapes
Out into the abyss

It escapes
With no return
No remorse
And no regret

My soul
Torn in two
Can't escape
Loves embracement

Halves can't escape
They die out
Cease existence
Confused in their sorrows

My soul
There's nothing left
No feeling
No warmth

No feeling is left
Just two empty halves
Gone
From an empty shell

My soul
Broken and Alone
No repair
No restoration

No repair for my soul
It's past the point of no return
Two souls will grieve tonight
And one will cease

Untitled

2008-03-05T18:20:00.004-08:00

Is it
Could it be
Is she the one
Right for me

How to know
How to tell
The hands of time
Giving me hell

She seems amazing
So unbelieveable
But how to know
How to tell
The hands of time
Giving me hell

Does she know
Can she tell
Do I ring her heart
Just like a bell

Does she think of me
The way I do her
The passion
The fear
I need to know
Are feelings sincere

I love her
Think she's the one for me
But with the hands' hell
I have to wait and see

Apology

2008-03-05T18:20:00.003-08:00

Blood flows from my veins
All for her pain
A thousand from the bottle
Go down the drain

Inflicted by me
A stupid mind
All for no reason
Just a senseless crime

She thinks and weeps
Cuts in my skin bleed
Deeper and deeper
They pierce through my soul
Like a curse untold

Sinful Grace

2008-03-05T18:20:00.001-08:00

I'm stronger than you'll ever be
Turn the other way
Darkness may surround me
But inside I'm light as day

Never took the time to know me
Looked out instead of in
You look and turn the other way
Like I'm a sin

Never opened your eyes
Too blind to see
Stereotyped by the weak
Your soul matters not to me

Lost in a sea of gossip and betrayals
Surrounded by the crowd
You will feel pain one day
I hope your screams are loud

A Soldier's Thoughts

2008-03-05T18:19:00.002-08:00

Out of the home
Into the war
With absence of thoughts
I cause blood and gore

Fighting for a nation
That doesn't agree
Caught in their politics
Too blind to see

Out of the tent
Where I try to lay
You sit in relaxation
As bullets soar throughout my day

Shooting for a nation
That doesn't agree
Caught in their politics
Too blind to see

Out of the love
I will be away
She will wait
Our love will stay

Hating for a nation
That doesn't agree
Caught in their politics
Too blind to see

Out of the gun
Through the air
Wounding my enemy
I try not to care

Killing for a nation
That doesn't agree
Caught in their politics
Too blind to see

Out of my mind
These memories must leave
For when it's all over
I wish not to grieve

Insane for a nation
That doesn't agree
Caught in their politics
Too blind to see

Out of the fear
I continue to fight
For no real purpose
But a nation's blind sight

Violence for a nation
That doesn't agree
Caught in their politics
Too blind to see

Out of the barrel
Comes enemy fire
I run in fear
Death is not my desire

Running for a nation
That doesn't agree
Caught in their politics
Too blind to see

Out of the hatred
That fills my foe
The bullet cuts through my flesh
Away I must go

Dying for a nation
That doesn't agree
Caught in their politics
Too blind to see

Out of this world
Enemy blood on my hands
Sentenced to hell
Pain they could not understand

Burning for a nation
That doesn't agree
Burn for them I will
For all eternity

From her heart
Love bleeds out
She takes her life
It is he she can't live without

Suicide for a nation
That doesn't agree
She's gone to be with him
And burn for all eternity

Let them pull out
Let the nation fall
For without us
It's death to them all

Angel's Deathly Path

2008-03-05T18:19:00.001-08:00

Happiness will stray
Until that fatal day
When I take my last breath
Led by the angel of death

Six feet under
Buried in the ground
Angels will sing
Deathly tunes will sound

Into the black abyss
Death whispers in my ear
I roam in the unknown
I have no fear

I am no longer here
I've gone away
I'm happy now
And yet I feel ashamed

Beastly Salvation

2008-03-05T18:18:00.003-08:00

Pain will erupt from every pore
All sense of emotion will go out the door
Screams and cries will echo through the night
No mercy will be in my sight

I will attack the soul who lies
Makes doubtfulness fill her mind
He will cry out in sorrow
For him there will be no tomorrow

Fueled by anger
Fueled by rage
I will laugh at his struggles
And lock his soul in a cage

Cage full of darkness
Cage full of fear
He will not lie again
For he will no longer be here

Soul locked away
To burn in hell
I find happiness in his misery
I find no regrets as he yells

Illusion Love

2008-03-05T18:18:00.001-08:00

Is she wrong
Is she right
Is this love an illusion
A heart's blind sight

Are feelings fake
Are feelings true
The mind loves her
The heart loves you

Memories still remain
Feelings are still there
New feelings found me
Love can't be fairly shared

Self Infliction

2008-03-05T18:14:00.000-08:00

A stab in the back
Words make sharp knives
Abandon all trust inside
Humans take their own lives

Violence, lust
Money and greed
Make a whole race of life
Cause themselves to bleed

Maybe it was accident
Maybe it was fate
Brothers and sisters
United in hate

From the start of time
Mistakes were made
Knowledge was gained
Tree was only for shade

The fruit sentenced man
The serpent lied
It decided the destiny
For all of mankind

They kill themselves
They hate each other
Sister hates brother
Brother hates mother

They take from each other
Anything they desire
All these possessions
Will one day be fire

After that day
Began the new start
Didn't go as planned
Human race falls apart

The Poison of Life

2008-03-05T18:13:00.001-08:00

The poison of life
Enters the throat
Such a wild ride
On an empty boat

So much confusion
So much despair
The breath of life
Gasping for air

All it took
Just one sip
Causes destruction
For the sinking ship

Such a small source
Only a vial
Has so many twists
I'll be away for a while

The ship was built
And once it soared
But then it sank
Slaying the soul aboard

Sails broken
Torn and ripped
Pain from the heart
Blood slowly drips

Many waves roar
Make life twist and turn
The poison of life
Makes th throat burn

A harmless drink
To ease the pain
Drives me mad
Drives me insane

Thoughts whisper to me
Her love knocks at my door
I answer the call
As I hit the hit the floor

I'm out cold
Drunk off life
Strong as a rock
Sharp as a knife

Door swings open
She gazes in
Only to find death
A regretful sin

Terror cries out
Screams reach the sky
As I'm layed to rest
I'm awakened by night

Twisted Fate

2008-03-05T18:12:00.001-08:00

She thinks I'm deceitful
She thinks I don't care
All from twisted thoughts
Which shouldn't have been shared

Come from a fiend
With no trust
No sign of sincerity
All for his own lust

He lies and deceives
Day after day
To fulfill no purpose
But make love waste away

She takes in the hisses
Coming from the snake
Like Adam and Eve
Words all fake

She chooses not to trust
But instead to wait
She will let her instinct
Decide love's fate

The Soldier's Goodbye

2008-03-05T18:11:00.003-08:00

Hold me tight
As we share our last night
As we take last sight
Darkness consumes light

Going away
Off to the fight
Not a feeling inside
Except love's might

I'm growing with fear
Skin turning white
I'll say I love you
As I go for a nation's right

I'll give you one last kiss
And turn the other way
Try not to look back
As I'm off to the fray

We shared our vows
I hold the memory dear
I think of the wonderful time
As my enemy fills my fear

I'll give you one last hug
Hold you as long as time will allow
Lost in happiness
Love will take a bow

As I'm off to the war
I'm ready to fly
As I kiss your lips
I'll say my last goodbye

False Life

2008-03-05T18:11:00.001-08:00

Fill your mind
With what's built up inside
A hidden truth of lies
In neglection's dark disguise

Shed your tears
Experience your fears
Make your lies true
The real truth haunts you

Diminish your mind
Brainwash yourself
In the end
The truth will tell

Twisted and turned
Memories not real
Integrity is lost
Living life as a tale

Make your fantasies
No longer false
Scared of the truth
Your true life is lost

Double identity
One continues to fade
You will be discovered
Heart beating in shade

Like a poisonous plant
Deceit continues to grow
It tries to destroy truth
But it's a worthy foe

You can't rid the truth
You can't set it free
If only you would accept it
Freedom might find thee

It's essence will always be there
Like a plauge corrupting the mind
Deceit may do the same
But it can't escape the hands of time

Dark Party

2008-03-05T18:10:00.000-08:00

Out of the graves
Our bodies rise
The essence of death
Fills us inside

Black fog appears
Devours the light
Our spirits torment you
Screams fill the night

Better run
As fast as you can
Don't look back
To where we stand

Tonight is young
Darkness is in reign
As long as fear is strong
The evil will remain

Stay in the light
What little you uncover
Jump into the darkness
And be discovered

Better run
As fast as you can
Don't look back
To where they stand

Have your body swallowed
Have your soul devoured
Have your heart eaten
Have your blood shower

Hope you don't feel it
Hope you find your power
Hope you can out-run death
Hope you enjoy your final hour

Better run
As fast as you can
Don't look back
To where we stand

Have it all done to you
Hope all you want
Because when we are finished
Actions and dreams won't haunt

We are among you
Buried out of sight
But in the midst of life
We come out at night

Broken Agony

2008-03-05T18:09:00.000-08:00

Pierce through my soul
Break my heart
Hatred fills my blood
Spirit falls apart

Remember the first time we talked
All the memories we shared
Thought she was real
But she never really cared

Words burn my feelings
Like kerosine for the head
It will never cease
I wish I was dead

How could I have been so stupid
I'm filled with dread
But to make it all better
I put a 45 to my head

With a squeeze of the trigger
The bullet ends my flame
Words are like fire
Fill her with shame

I died tonight
Such a great story to tell
You'll all be pleased to know
That I'm burning in hell

Deep in the seventh layer
Where the fiery river flows
The minatours torment me
With their flaming bows

The harpies shriek
As they crack their whips
They jump out of the tree
My charred soul rips

Spiritual Wars

2008-03-05T18:08:00.000-08:00

Through your light eyes
I look into your soul
And as I see your fortress
My blood begins to boil

My eyes may be darkened
Or maybe your just blind
Does the body really matter
I'll put your soul in a bind

As I peer into your soul
I see the stronghold within
I will burn this fortress to the ground
You can not win

Meet me in my mind
A wasteland head
No becomes a battleground
Your soul will soon be dead

You should have fled away
But instead you filled me with hate
And now as I sentence you
I decide your fate

Such an ignorant race
Humans don't think
That can all change
As all their souls sink

Carny Hell

2008-03-05T18:07:00.002-08:00

Flames rage throughout my body
Abandon all hope you possess
You can not escape my wrath
My rage continues to progress

Darkness clouds my deceased mind
I am not really at this place
But as you scream in pain and agony
A great smile comes to my face

Flames raging inside it
No word to describe it
There is no soul left there
And the body's buried in the pit
So what am I?
You may have a moment of ease to think
Is this real?
Or have you just had too much to drink?

Take the knife
Sharp and shining
Stab him all day and night
Grab his heart begin dining

I laugh like I have never laughed before
Loud and clear at his lack of power
I invite everyone to join me
In my fantastic blood shower

Come one, come all to this place
Fill the joy, watch me shower
Laugh in horror and happiness
Come and see his final hour

My Personal Hell

2008-03-05T18:07:00.001-08:00

I have come from a place
A place that you could not believe
A place beyond your feeling's comprehension
A place only sin and death can achieve

The place is deep under your feet
Far beyond any mans reach
Only death can take you there
In spirit form you enter the boiling layer

I have been given a second chance
Life has been sucked back into me
To get here I was falling up
From the deep pit with a flaming sea

But the place I speak of follows me
Caused by a shattered dream
The dream that once filled my head
Now is a nightmare burning my bed

For the flames to provide so much light
It is so dark where my spirit and it reside
Life corrupted into something horrifying
This place called hell choose me to be beside

Real or fake, true or false?
It's very real. Life is lost.
Memory or dream? Experience or illusion?
All souls enter. Get lost in the confusion.

Lindsay's Will

2008-03-05T18:06:00.002-08:00

Dedicated to: Lindsay

Lindsay's Will
Dedicated to: Lindsay

I'm here today
Recalling my life
All the pain and suffering
My will continues to drive

I should have died from the start
But life reigned over death
At my life's birth
I was somehow granted breath

My parents' love weakened over the years
The joining couldn't progress
I was dampened with more sorrow
As the separation was professed

Now I'm sitting here in my chair
My special chair with wheels
I have many worries for my future
Will I ever know how love feels?

I'm not alone with my troubles
For I have great friends
They help me on my journey through life
All the way to the very end

So I've looked death in the face before
I laughed as it knocked at my door
And while pain continues to feel
Nothing will ever break my will

Hollie's Eyes

2008-03-05T18:06:00.001-08:00

Dedicated to: Hollie

Hollie's eyes are like no other
So shining and full of light
As she stares at my painful ones
My spirits soar with might

Hollie's eyes are beautiful
With a deep brown tint
So dark but yet so bright
To see them you must squint

Hollie's eyes are like caregivers
They provide for the weak
She can help everyone
Without having to speak

Hollie's eyes are like comedian
They will make your spirit soar
Even on your darkest day
Even when you're at death's door

Hollie's eyes are everlasting
Like to big sunshines
And even the darkest souls
Can't escape the light of Hollie's eyes

Love

2008-03-05T18:05:00.003-08:00

I can't wait until that special night
The room darkened with not much light
Nothing but candles and a dim fire
You, my love, are my heart's desire

All night I'll hold you close
I'll never let your warmth go
I'll whisper love in your ear
I'll hold your precious heart dear

I've expressed my eternal love for you
After everything we've been through
You'll forever know that my love is true
While I'm with you no pain is due

I'll tell you everything you want to hear
But the words will not be your fear
Cause I'll really mean the words I say
Unlike the guys that turned your soul gray

I'll take all of me and to you I will give it
My mind, my body, my soul, my spirit
My everlasting love for you is true
And I just want to say, "I love you."

U.S. Army All The Way (Marching Cadence Written By Me)

2008-03-05T18:05:00.001-08:00

U.S. Army all the way
Fighting for that next day
Constant war we never lay
Always hot ain't no shade

U.S. Army 'til the end
To them countries we are sent
Wish we were where we've been
Not out here in this tent

U.S. Army will always last
We are the future. We are the past.
Out there fightin' all the wars
Death knocking at all our doors

Leave that day when it rains
On a bus, plane, or train
All our families hope and pray
U.S. Army all the way

Kill Me Dead

2008-03-05T18:04:00.001-08:00

Rip my heart out, chop it in half
Destroy my essence, have a good laugh
Death is near, I have no dread
Kill me now, kill me dead

Kill me dead, crush my soul
Hatred and misery take a toll
Lead me on a deathly stroll
Kill me now, make me boil

Rip out my life, throw it in fire
Make me lose hope, you're a grat liar
I don't feel pain, too much I've bled
Kill me now, kill me dead

Kill me dead, crush my soul
Hatred and misery take a toll
Lead me on a deathly stroll
Kill me now, make me boil

Rip out my brain, clear the memories
Clear all my thoughts, except the miseries
Bring me more pain, fill up my head
Kill me now, kill me dead

Kill me dead, crush my soul
Hatred and misery take a toll
Lead me on a deathly stroll
Kill me now, make me boil

Now I wish I could go, but you won't let me
Don't keep me here, just set me free
Keeping me alive, only by a thread
Kill me now, kill me dead

Broken Heart

2008-03-05T18:03:00.000-08:00

I broke her heart
She broke mine
Two hearts fade
In confusion's bind

Tears feel the air
She never cared
Lied to my mind
I'll never find

Loves not for me
I'll just accept it
No one cares
Hatred's expected

She's over it already
She's moved on
Guess I didn't matter
Thoughts won't leave me alone

She guarded my heart
Then she betrayed
Didn't see it coming
Heart's blood is sprayed

I thought I broke hers
But I really did not
Around mine she tied a chain
Into a constricting knot

Freezing Eyes

2008-03-05T18:02:00.002-08:00

Your blue eyes
Cold as ice
To gaze into them
Is to pay a price

A freezing price
Freezes the soul
Freezes my time
You take a toll

You look at me
Heart stops beating
I look at you
Get lost at greeting

Those perfect eyes
Blue as the sea
If you only knew
What you do to me

Like two maps
That I get lost in
But yet they find me
Thoughts wear thin

I get lost in you
Yet I'm found
It is your spirit
By which I'm bound

Angry Escape

2008-03-05T18:02:00.001-08:00

Sitting here all alone
Just too misunderstood
I need to get away from here
Need to be where I should

I'm stuck inside my head
Wish my thoughts were dead
Away from here I must go
Before anger takes over
Before I blow

Need to go now
Don't need to wait
This shit will never stop
This is not my fate

Sitting here all confused
How did this come about
How can I clear my head
All they ever do is shout

I'm stuck inside my head
Wish my thoughts were dead
Away from here I must go
Before anger takes over
Before I blow

Need to go now
Don't need to wait
This shit will never stop
This is not my fate

Let me go
I'm not here for you
You keep trying
To hold onto me
Trying to make me different
Trying to make me
What you want me to be

Fuck you

Cleansed Mind

2008-03-05T18:01:00.000-08:00

I thought of leaving once
But you convinced me to stay
You embraced thoughts of my joy
Took all my hopelessness away
I found hope, all because of you
I'm here, not alone, but filled with presence
Tormenting thoughts have disappeared
Encompassed in your warm essence

Kill the suicidal mind, bring me new life
Kill the depression, bring me new love
Kill the darkness, bring shining light
Kill the demon, bring me your angel soul

I am always going to stay
I've unbottled all my thoughts to you
You're there to listen to me
Not to criticize or judge the path
I found goodness, all because of you
I'm here, raging in an angel's loving flames
Weakness and despair have left me
Suicide has forfeited all our dark games

Kill the suicidal mind, bring me new life
Kill the depression, bring me new love
Kill the darkness, bring shining light
Kill the demon, bring me your angel soul

As I drowned away, you reach out to me
Grabbed me from the darkened sea
Pulled me up and into the glory
Gave me new life, began my new story

Kill the suicidal mind, bring me new life
Kill the depression, bring me new love
Kill the darkness, bring shining light
Kill the demon, bring me your angel soul

And as I live my life today
Glad I didn't go the other way
Without you I would be dead
But your warmth cleared my head

The Way The World Goes Blind

2008-03-05T17:51:00.000-08:00

Last night I had a dream
A dream like no other
In it I was murdered
Murdered by my brother
By him I was brutally stabbed by the blade
As I felt the pain my hope began to fade
Love for brotherhood couldn't trade
What he's done can't be remade

Like my brother just not blood
We new each other's mind
But when he aimed at me
My life couldn't rewind
Stabbed my chest
Sliced my heart
Chopped my limbs
Ripped me apart

And as I felt the pain
I looked into his eyes
I could not see my friend
But a beast from her lies
The blade broke so out came the gun
I layed there in silence unable to run
To him this slaughter seemed fun
But later his battle wouldn't be won

Like my brother just not blood
We new each other's mind
But when he aimed at me
My life couldn't rewind
Shot my head
Shot my chest
Shot my limbs
Made a mess

But to his astonishment
Again I started beating
As I arose from the ground
I heard his pleading
He had mudered my cold
But he didn't kill my soul
Now as this story's told
To me his fate is sold

Like my brother just not blood
We new each other's mind
But when I aimed at him
His actions couldn't rewind
Stabbed his chest
Sliced his heart
Chopped his limbs
Ripped hin apart

As I felt the rush
I looked into his eyes
All of this shit started
Only becuase of her lies
I killed my best friend in my life
And then my head came to realize
She is the cause of this suprise
It is the deceiver that must die

Like my brother who's blood I spilt
Our friendship was once very rich
All becuase of her he was now dead
And to make it right I'll kill the bitch
Stabbed her chest
Sliced her heart
Chopped her limbs
Ripped her apart

And as she felt the pain
I looked into her eyes
It made my happy to see
She was paying for the lies
I made her screams echo through the night
I tormented her past the sun's light
As she layed there bleeding, she was very white
I knew this was wrong, but it felt so right

Like my brother who's blood I spilt
Our friendship was once very rich
All becuase of her he was now dead
And to make it right I killed the bitch
Laughed very loud
Death made glee
I killed myself
The deaths weren't free

Deathly Rejection

2008-03-05T17:48:00.001-08:00

I love her precious heart
But for me it's too blind
It can't see my love
My feelings are left behind

If it knew how I felt
If it knew what think
Pain would be inflicted
Not the love that I seek

So the decision has come
Tell the heart and be hated
Don't tell it and hate myself
Feelings can't be sedated

Will it be Hate or friendship
Will it be Friend or foe
Hatred fills me wither way
But I can't let love go

I'll bottle it up in me
I'll seal the cap tight
Too keep the friendship
I'll surrender the fight

Open Your Eyes

2008-03-05T17:36:00.000-08:00

Dedicated to: Paige

You feel the pain
As you slice your veins
All because of love
You go insane

For you I take the pills
For you my soul is killed
For you i give my will
For you my blood is spilt
You won't give in
You let sorrow grow
I can't make you see
You won't let me show

You feel the blade
As your hope starts to fade
Life is given for love
Not at all a fair trade

For you I take the pills
For you my soul is killed
For you i give my will
For you my blood is spilt
You won't give in
You let sorrow grow
I can't make you see
You won't let me show